No news on Jamer's job yet. He is going to call tomorrow.

I've been told by a multitude of women in the office that my baby appears to have dropped. My stomach is showing differently over the last couple of days apparently. I've also discovered new pains in my lower areas that lead me to believe Xander baby has started the drop if not completed it. Tomorrow I go to the Doctor for my weekly visit. She is going to check to see if I've begun the dilations that will allow the little one out of my body. I can't imagine it will be fun, but than again I can't imagine labor and delivery is going to be fun either.

It is still so weird to me that in a matter of mere days Jamers and I could be parents. I still think of myself as a young 20 something without adult responsibilities, although I've had responsibilities for as long as I can remember. You would think that buying the house would've cemented that way of thinking, but no. I guess on one hand that is good because I still see myself as young.

Anyhoo, any day he could show up and I'm still nervous and excited. I've been reading "The Tao of Pooh" which I'm rather enjoying. I didn't know anything about Taoist philosophy until beginning this book. Granted it is probably like reading Cliff notes on the subject, but it makes a lot of sense to me. I wish I could be more like Pooh, but alas, I have always been an Eeyore :( I think I would like to try to be more like Pooh although I don't see myself ever really mastering the "Is". (See there I go being all Eeyore like again!)

So life feels like I've taken a big breathe and I'm just holding it waiting to exhale on cue. As James just put it, I'm stuck between tick and tock. All I can do is wait and practice the "what will be will be" and know that everything will work out as it is meant to.

With that I leave you, perhaps for the last time as just a wife. Perhaps next posting I'll be a mommy too!