to rent a house as opposed to an apartment. Really, I'm just not designed for close living quarters to other people. We don't want to have to get a storage facility as well, so a 2-3 bedroom house with lots of sq ft sounds like something that we are willing to shell out the extra dough for. I've begun the search today for houses. Hopefully, in the next couple of weeks we'll having the housing situation all figured out! James went ahead and reserved the Uhaul. We got the 26' which I'm truly hoping will fit all our stuff. The extra furniture from granny altered our original plans, but I'm most definitely not complaining.

Now if we can just find jobs! I've changed my resumes to reflect the Noss' address (Thanx Noe!) and have applied for a bunch of new job postings. I'm hoping that I'll get a reply or two out of it. If not than maybe I should respond to one of those, "I saw your resume. . ." jobs for some sort of sales position. I don't want to, but I need to have a job, right?

Anyhoo, breakfast, er . . .looking at the clock, lunch is ready and I shall toodle off.

I'm working on apartment searches, and boy there are a lot of apartments for rent up in Portland! I've sent inquiries to a dozen plus places so now I'll just sit back and wait until they start contacting me.

Once again, looking at all the websites people have sent my way, I'm feeling dejected about finding a job. Either the pay really is to small or I don't feel like I'll be good enough. Gads I hate this! I've never enjoyed looking for jobs. It is nerve racking and it causes me to stress and hurt. I'm seriously thinking of flopping on the recruiter idea and going with one of those. Or maybe a temp to hire thing, but then I lose months of benefits. I guess maybe I should just bite the bullet. Crystal at work told me that temp agencies are a good way to get a job and see if you like working in a place before you get hired on. She's right, I know she's right. Maybe after this sinus pain is gone (I've flushed with salt water, and took Nasal Decons, to no avail) I'll refocus my energy and jump back in.

We've decided to get a larger storage place. We have to move the bar up from SLO county, my cobra chairs from my mom's, the stuff in the attic, and whatever ultimately I get from the family source. It will cost over double what we pay now to upgrade to a 10x20 but it will be the easiest when it comes to moving. That and we only have like 4 months left. In some ways, that 4 months seems like such a long time, but in other ways I feel like I'm rushed. I think once I resolve the living situation and my own working situation that life will be that much easier.

Damnportlanders today there was a job posting that is perfect for Jamers. The guy unfortunately said they wanted someone to start in the next month. James sent his kick ass cover letter along with his resume, but I don't know how much good it will do. If they liked it, and James had to take off and live up there for without me for a couple of months it would be doable. I wouldn't like it, but we could make it work. But if it doesn't work out, that just means that something better is right around the corner for him. Everything happens for a reason, right?

It's 7:20 now, and I have to go to the kitchen to find dinner. We haven't grocery shopped in a while, and since I didn't nag about it, nothing got done in the way of dinner this evening. Oh well! That's the price I pay for trying not to have a marriage like my last one.

Good night all.

I've just spent the last hour and a half on line getting my resume up on Monster, hotjobs, and careerbuilder. I continually got frustrated with the "word doc" only upload, have they ever heard of Adobe? I was told years ago by a professional hiring manager, that you should always have your resume in PDF format. But not one of these websites would allow me to upload a PDF. Anyhow, after loading all my info on each site, I did a job search for the Portland area. You know what I discovered? It is something that I'm guessing most people already know, but I didn't is that they are useless unless you want to work through a placement agency of some type. I would guess that 97% of the accounting/finance jobs posted were from placement agencies. I don't want to go through one of those. I want a direct hire position with a company. I hate temp agencies.

Now I'm upset and angry and worried that finding a job will be nigh near impossible unless I go through one of those. Does anyone else out there know of a website that will help me find a job from a company in Portland, without me having to go through a placement agency? It may be that I'm just trying to wind down from the weekend and I'm tired, PMSing, and cranky. However, I just feel so hopeless right now and I don't know what to do.

Jamers on the other hand, totally rocks at this job search thingy. Whereas I have the tendency to under-value myself and sell myself short, he is the opposite. His game plan for finding a job is a might bit different than mine. He has done a search of all the print shops up there, and has compiled a database of sorts. He is going to mail merge those with his cover letter, attach his resume and send it out. Xine and I read his cover letter yesterday and it kicks major ass. Like I would almost start a printing company just so I could hire him. I told him (nope I didn't ask, I told) that he needs to do my cover letters. I just can't do them. I get nervous and scared and I come of sounding inept and stupid. He sounds confident, intelligent, and unique.

I guess if he gets a job right away we can deal until I can find a job. I would prefer if that didn't happen though. Anyhoo, I must toodle off to bed. I need to get caught up in my book and I'm hoping that I'll get so involved with that that I'll forget all about the job search mess.